When self realisation happens, its difficult to face the reality. When I make a mistake then its pretty bad, worse when I realise that I have made a mistake. The important thing is to learn the lesson and move on. Darna nai. Convert this experience into an opportunity. PUSH yourself to higher limits. Move out of the comfort zone. Thats where lies the gold. Thats the formula for success. Freak out. Make each moment count.
1 month over since MBA started, and its all over in a flash. GC and me were discussing the value of time and how we should not waste it. NOW is what is important. Make the NOW count. Constantly talk to yourself to make things happen. Then it will happen.
Believe in yourself. You have done it before, you can do it now too. Make it happen. Make it count.
Lets try to push myself, see what happens. Trial and error.
7 minutes of thinking can get so much clarity. Getting back to Marketing case.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
1st day of IE
Nov 12
Today we went for our official first day of IMBA at IE. This was the day I was looking forward to for a long time.
The
We had presentations by the Dean Mr. Santiago Iniguez, Associate Dean Mr David Bach and a host of others welcoming us to the IMBA program and giving us a lot of information about how to go about the year ahead. David made us look at each other and then mentioned – these are your teachers for the time ahead. This was an important message. Yes, I have to learn from all of them. The Dean also mentioned that we should have an attitude that I know nothing and change is but permanent. Profound words, which Gurudev has already mentioned in all his teachings. There is so much of spiritual knowledge which has been adapted to the corporate world. So easy for me to understand the subtle meanings and understand what was said. Keep your eyes open and yours ears to the ground. David also read out a poem, by Constantine P Cavafy, to us about the idea of
There was a board member, a fairly old gentleman, probably in his sixties. He was humorous and jovial and connected with each and every student sitting in the audience. He gave some tips too and all of them stressed on the fact that we should network, not only with the students but also the professors. They (the professors) will be the ones which can open doors and make things happen for us. What I learnt from him was that even when you become a big man and has been there and done that – have a sense of humor. I strongly believe that your sense of humor can win you lots of friends.
We also had David Sifry – founder of Technorati Inc. He has been a serial entrepreneur and gave us a lecture on tips for being a successful entrepreneur. What I learnt from his lecture was that it’s a difficult process no doubt, but if you have self belief and commitment to hard work, it will work out. Be ready to fail and face failure as fast as possible. Keep the team you have and have the brains and guts to move on when your time is up. It was a damn good lecture and gave a great insight into what it takes to be a real entrepreneur. It was indeed a great day of learning. School starts tomorrow.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
90 days counted
When I arrived at
Now, almost a month after getting here, there are some thoughts which I am blogging down (guess this will be a new term, like penning down - blogging down will be used often)
There are phases which come in ones life and teach them things which leave a big impression. These impressions become part of the decision process and ultimately shape your destiny. When I was explaining to Sam and Domen about the Karma cycle and why all our actions and therefore reactions shape our destiny, it was a self learning too. I am now going to make all my actions and reactions count. I will shape my destiny the way I want it to.
There was the phase before coming here of anticipation and hope. Now there is the phase of challenges and competition. Soon there will be a phase of achievement and contention. Take it one step at a time. Enjoy each phase as it comes. Don’t run to it. It will come at its own time.
I love the city already. Now that I’m settled in and enjoying the chill out period before school starts, I will probably start visiting the close by cities like Toledo and Segovia which are rich in Spanish culture. There is a buzz in the city which reminds me of Mumbai. The people are fast and always on the move. The metro is good and is important for a big city. Mumbai needs one quickly. When my batch mates ask me where I am from, I tell them
IE is one of the premier institutes of the world and my education would only propel my career to greater heights, but there are reasons which was not known to me when I decided to come here. Some are revealed to me now.
We take so many people for granted and love them at our own will, when they love us with no reason. My parents! They are the one reason why I would consider myself successful and happy. They have done all they could to make me a master of my destiny. They are my source of strength and happiness. I could not have asked for better parents and better siblings. How much I have gained from them is impossible to put down on this blog. Now moving away from them after all the years since birth makes me realize how much I miss them and owe to them. The good thing is that Priya is there. She’s such a help and a support. We talk everyday, more than we ever spoke in the last 15 years after her wedding. Thank you God.
The other thing is that I am lucky to be at the right place at the right time. There is so much of talk and interest in
I used to wonder why I do not get repaid for the ‘good’ that I do to society and don’t get rewarded for the good deeds I do. This was a total revelation to me when I met Sam for the first time. He happens to be a junior from JNS and that was a sure ice breaker. He was kind to let me stay in his house for 10 days and it was sheer coincidence (but maybe planned by Him) that his room mate was also out of town for exactly the same period. I would call that a perfect calculation. How I would jump to conclusions earlier. Fool!
There are many many people who you would know but there are few you can count as friends. They stay with you even if you go far away. This is what makes them friends. Though we are miles apart, there is so much love and respect for each other. I know I can count on them. That sense of security one gets only after spending hundreds of hours knowing each other. I’m sure they know that too. Whichever part of the world we are, we are there for each other. God has his own ways to make me realize these things. Distance makes the heart grow fonder. True.
There is the power of thought and prayer. SS had told me to do the Hanuman Chalisa every day. I do it. It’s His grace that my loan for the fee and living has been granted. I am so relieved and happy. Guru krupa is more important than any other blessing in the world. He takes care of you.
This is only the beginning of the phase. There will be lot more coming your way. Brace yourself and also enjoy yourself. You life is NOT depended on it. You are free and happy. If you attach more importance than is needed, it will become an obsession. I know from the past that any obsession is a sure recipe for disaster. Keep your cool and remain composed. Go out there and excel. That’s what you here for. I am glad I chose IE. The fantastic array of students from all over the world excites me. Suddenly I know people from 50 countries all over the world.
I can’t wait for the school to begin.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Inspiration
In pursuit of happiness - the movie was very inspiring. Perseverance was the key factor there. Inspite of all the odds and getting down in the dumps time and again, this man just stood his ground and kept pushing himself till he got there. WOW.
Here I am, sitting in Sam's house in Madrid, got almost all the things I need, and still wondering where am I headed from here. Just before watching this movie, the direction I needed for my MBA was kind of vague. Now, the need for direction has become so intense that I will spend time with myself on this. Introspection on whats best for me and how do I achieve it. In my mind I have to draw a map and make the roads. Think of the obstacles and remove them in the mind itself. Swami Mitrananda's advise is so useful here. Spend this time now. You have many hours till school starts. So get up and get going. Once the direction is there be focused and make the right moves. Just one year will make or break my future. You have no one to answer but yourself. Don't let yourself down. Decide what you want to do and just do it. Make it happen. Make it count.
Here I am, sitting in Sam's house in Madrid, got almost all the things I need, and still wondering where am I headed from here. Just before watching this movie, the direction I needed for my MBA was kind of vague. Now, the need for direction has become so intense that I will spend time with myself on this. Introspection on whats best for me and how do I achieve it. In my mind I have to draw a map and make the roads. Think of the obstacles and remove them in the mind itself. Swami Mitrananda's advise is so useful here. Spend this time now. You have many hours till school starts. So get up and get going. Once the direction is there be focused and make the right moves. Just one year will make or break my future. You have no one to answer but yourself. Don't let yourself down. Decide what you want to do and just do it. Make it happen. Make it count.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Ganpati Bappa Moriya
When someone asks me what is the power of God and have you seen it, what I can only tell them is that till you experience it yourself, whatever others may tell you, you will not truly believe that God exists. When the chips are down is when I remember him with all the force of the world. And why not. Kunti had asked Krishna to give her a little pain everyday so to remember HIM all times. My faith also had its conditions and was very upset that inspite of the 'conditional' faith, I was not getting what I wanted. Then after discussing with my closest friend, I realised that i was being so conditional in the faith I have. I am not truly surrendering to HIM. This was the real cause of the pain and mental torture I was going through. Thats when I snapped out of the illusion that I am doing anything and I can control all the things in my life. Surrender was the only way to keep the mind peaceful.
To leave on 19 september was conditional that I get my visa much before. By the time it was 13 september, I cancelled my ticket to Spain. Mom had told me that since I would not be here on 19th September for the Ganpati visarjan (5th day), she didn't want to keep Ganpati at home, a tradition we had kept for over 30 years. Now with the decision not to go, I immediately told Mom to get Ganeshji home. I even stopped calling the embassy now and resigned to the fact that when they have to call, they will. On Saturday 15 September, the Lord Ganesh graced our house. There was such a sense of peace and happiness. I was glad that we took the decision to bring him home and keep the tradition on. Lots of our friends and relatives came home and it was really nice. Then the miracle happened. Monday evening, again while entering the ashram, I got the news that the visa was through. I was elated if not ecstatic. All the things started to fall into place now.
Now Tuesday was the only day I had to go to Delhi and return as Wednesday was the visarjan. When the visa officer told me that she will give me the visa the next day, I had to beg and plead her. Not heeding to my requests, I finally told her that I have to return to Mumbai as I had to do the Ganesh visarjan the next day. Magic! She said OK and while returning the passport with the visa stamped, she signed off by saying - Ganpati Bappa Moriya.
What more indication was required that He was controlling these unseen things in my life. Why do I waste so much time thinking and brooding over the fact that I can or cannot do so many things. His grace is there, so now there is no further confusion. When the chips are down in future, I will read this again and get the inspiration and commitment to move ahead.
The last 2 weeks have been the most hectic. It was amazing the amount of work I had to finish. But again by His grace all things worked out very very well. My bosses at Atma Darshan were the most supportive. It was the biggest loss to them but they put my future before theirs as priority and bid me the most lovely farewell. I will truly be missing them.
It was the most beautiful experience to be witness to real miracles from God himself. Now I know why the visa was rejected in the first place - to ensure that my faith in him remains intact. Whatever little doubt that I had, was removed. When I truly gave up the fight and surrendered, it worked like magic. Surrender and flow with the faith. Thats the way to go ahead.
To leave on 19 september was conditional that I get my visa much before. By the time it was 13 september, I cancelled my ticket to Spain. Mom had told me that since I would not be here on 19th September for the Ganpati visarjan (5th day), she didn't want to keep Ganpati at home, a tradition we had kept for over 30 years. Now with the decision not to go, I immediately told Mom to get Ganeshji home. I even stopped calling the embassy now and resigned to the fact that when they have to call, they will. On Saturday 15 September, the Lord Ganesh graced our house. There was such a sense of peace and happiness. I was glad that we took the decision to bring him home and keep the tradition on. Lots of our friends and relatives came home and it was really nice. Then the miracle happened. Monday evening, again while entering the ashram, I got the news that the visa was through. I was elated if not ecstatic. All the things started to fall into place now.
Now Tuesday was the only day I had to go to Delhi and return as Wednesday was the visarjan. When the visa officer told me that she will give me the visa the next day, I had to beg and plead her. Not heeding to my requests, I finally told her that I have to return to Mumbai as I had to do the Ganesh visarjan the next day. Magic! She said OK and while returning the passport with the visa stamped, she signed off by saying - Ganpati Bappa Moriya.
What more indication was required that He was controlling these unseen things in my life. Why do I waste so much time thinking and brooding over the fact that I can or cannot do so many things. His grace is there, so now there is no further confusion. When the chips are down in future, I will read this again and get the inspiration and commitment to move ahead.
The last 2 weeks have been the most hectic. It was amazing the amount of work I had to finish. But again by His grace all things worked out very very well. My bosses at Atma Darshan were the most supportive. It was the biggest loss to them but they put my future before theirs as priority and bid me the most lovely farewell. I will truly be missing them.
It was the most beautiful experience to be witness to real miracles from God himself. Now I know why the visa was rejected in the first place - to ensure that my faith in him remains intact. Whatever little doubt that I had, was removed. When I truly gave up the fight and surrendered, it worked like magic. Surrender and flow with the faith. Thats the way to go ahead.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
The power of thought
When you want something really bad, the entire universe conspires for you to make it happen.
By the power of my will, I will make this happen.
Words from the Alchemist and Autobiography of a Yogi ring in my mind the entire day today. And I have been saying to myself that by the power of my will, it will happen. Don't know why this conviction has come today. It has never been so so powerful. Don't know how to thank my closest dearest friend for pointing out this to me. It is an experience to absorb and reflect upon. How can I make things happen for me. This is a test of my conviction. I dont know about the result yet. But what I have thought about and been telling myself the entire day must have a connection to why now. I am writing this to reflect on this.
When I am not totally convinced about something, the mind starts playing its games. Looks at the negatives and the positives and will only show you how things cannot happen. Murphys laws were made by a pessimistic mind only. This same mind needed almost a month of drilling and beating. When I was told to accept defeat as a part of myself, it just got so so clear in my mind. The ego was not accepting that I could not succeed. Once I accepted the defeat, the ego just crash landed. When there is nothing between the conviction and the mind (in this case the ego was the hindrance) the conviction is now so powerful that nothing can stop it. This by itself is a deep learning for my future. I will be defeated and down a lot more times. How to tackle it will be the key. Accept that yes, I also can have shortcomings, I also can be on the wrong side, I also can be unsuccessful - but only once I accept it and absorb that its possible to me, that the ego will disappear. Otherwise all the time it will keep probing - How can I lose or be on the wrong. This acceptance is very very important. You need to be aware of it at every stage of your life. Let us not deviate from the real goal of happiness. Other than creating reasons to feel sad, lets look at removing the obstacles of being happy always.
It will be proved in time if you really really want something, the entire world will conspire to make it happen. As SS keeps saying - Make it happen. The power of the mind will make it happen, only if the mind is free of any ego or pride. Let it go and success is only in the waiting.
By the power of my will, I will make this happen.
Words from the Alchemist and Autobiography of a Yogi ring in my mind the entire day today. And I have been saying to myself that by the power of my will, it will happen. Don't know why this conviction has come today. It has never been so so powerful. Don't know how to thank my closest dearest friend for pointing out this to me. It is an experience to absorb and reflect upon. How can I make things happen for me. This is a test of my conviction. I dont know about the result yet. But what I have thought about and been telling myself the entire day must have a connection to why now. I am writing this to reflect on this.
When I am not totally convinced about something, the mind starts playing its games. Looks at the negatives and the positives and will only show you how things cannot happen. Murphys laws were made by a pessimistic mind only. This same mind needed almost a month of drilling and beating. When I was told to accept defeat as a part of myself, it just got so so clear in my mind. The ego was not accepting that I could not succeed. Once I accepted the defeat, the ego just crash landed. When there is nothing between the conviction and the mind (in this case the ego was the hindrance) the conviction is now so powerful that nothing can stop it. This by itself is a deep learning for my future. I will be defeated and down a lot more times. How to tackle it will be the key. Accept that yes, I also can have shortcomings, I also can be on the wrong side, I also can be unsuccessful - but only once I accept it and absorb that its possible to me, that the ego will disappear. Otherwise all the time it will keep probing - How can I lose or be on the wrong. This acceptance is very very important. You need to be aware of it at every stage of your life. Let us not deviate from the real goal of happiness. Other than creating reasons to feel sad, lets look at removing the obstacles of being happy always.
It will be proved in time if you really really want something, the entire world will conspire to make it happen. As SS keeps saying - Make it happen. The power of the mind will make it happen, only if the mind is free of any ego or pride. Let it go and success is only in the waiting.
Monday, August 6, 2007
Depression and its cure
Papa had drilled this long back into my head, you will only get what you deserve, and not what you desire. and HE knows what you deserve. Its so easy to lose faith in Him when things dont go your way. How easy it is for me to just see the here and now and not be grounded in reality. Why do i not see the bigger picture. The mind has to be trained to see the bigger picture. I have to have faith in my Lord. How is it possible that He will EVER let me down. Be patient with your life. Sometimes the test of faith is through different means. Be sure that he is there to guide you. For all you know there is something better in store for you. BUT the mind should listen also. Ats tells me time is the biggest healer. And the positive freak that I am, my mind will come to terms with this too. Move on Mr. Bhatia, life is too short to sit and crib. You are insulting your own Gurus by getting depressed. Remember what Swami Mitrananda said - DONT ever ever get depressed in life. You have so many choices in front of you. Think what is best for you, then analyse the obstacles to your goal and in your mind, REMOVE the obstacles. This is what is the best thing for your. Be calm and composed. Think about the future which lies ahead. Never Never Never give up on yourself. NEVER!!! You are the ultimate energy. When one door closes, the other one opens. WAIT for it to open. Patience is a virture which you have to develop. When you go to Delhi tomorrow, whats going to happen you dont know, but you have put your faith in the Lord and are going ahead with that faith na. In the same way, for everthing in life, just surrender to his will. Remember you are only the instrument. De-stress your mind. Chill.
Writing this has been a stress buster of sorts. When you read this again later it will act as a guide for you.
How do I feel now. ELATED - 32000 feet above the ground in the plane...hehehe. On a serious note - Success is inevitable. Never give up on yourself and keep the faith. This is the way to be. Some things you can't change. Accept, absorb and move on! Darne ka nahi.
Writing this has been a stress buster of sorts. When you read this again later it will act as a guide for you.
How do I feel now. ELATED - 32000 feet above the ground in the plane...hehehe. On a serious note - Success is inevitable. Never give up on yourself and keep the faith. This is the way to be. Some things you can't change. Accept, absorb and move on! Darne ka nahi.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
is tibet free? am I free?
Wow,amazing! why cant indian airports be so chic? When i landed at Lhasa airport with the group, I was awestruck with the simplicity and cleanliness.But Indian airports are getting there now. Goggar airport is situated more than hour out of the main city. In the middle of mountains is this structure and its just quite state of the art. Moving to Lhasa, mixed emotions running through my mind.Phase 1 is still underway and now crossed the first part of phase 1 in Kathmandu.Will I be able to handle the groups expectations? Will my health be up to it? Will I be able to do the parikrama on foot? What will happen on 26 July at the visa office? so many thoughts and such a small me. Take one day at a time. Its easier this way. Decision made.
Over the three days in Lhasa, visited the Potala Palace, which was the palace of the Dalai Lama before the Cultural Revolution in 1959. What amazed me about the palace was that even though the Chinese took over Tibet, they have been pacca businessmen and converted it into a tourist spot. What shocked me about the facts was when our guide told us the horrific stories. Out of 6000 monasteries, only 20 remained. The monasteries such destroyed were made into roads and citizens were told to walk on them. Just imagine, someone breaks my temple and makes a road outside my house and forces me to walk on it? I didn't react to it and just ignored the thought. But now while I type this blog, it makes me think.All the monks were either killed or jailed. Very few made it to India.
On the other hand, Lhasa was a delight. Nice big roads, great buildings, modern vehicles, all very state of the art. Even visited the rail station which had a platform bigger than all 4 platforms of churgate station put together. Money pumped in by the China govt., is well spent no doubt about that. But the question is - DO THE TIBETANS WANT THIS CHANGE?
A story about Akbar and Birbal was told. Once a child with an over sized coat and a middle aged man with a coat barely covering his chest walked into the darbaar of Akbar. Seeing the apparent disparity, Akbar asked Birbal - being a just king, I think that I should ask the boy to exchange his coat with the man's. Birbal stopped him by saying- King you cannot change anyones fate and destiny. The man is not asking for help and the boy is lucky to have the big coat. What this means is that the Tibetan's were happy and contended with their state of living. They did not ask for a change. This is what is a disturbing trend in todays world. Give help when asked for. Don't impose yourself on others. This makes me take a step back and look at myself. Have I been a self imposing 'helper'. Do I help even when its not required. Its the play of the ego that makes me want to prove that I am capable, I am in a state of higher power, hence want to impose that power even if its not asked for. The help is just a manifestation of power in this case. Think before you act. You could be imposing yourself on others.THINK!
Am I really free? Or are also bound by the powers of the ego? Does it guide your everyday actions. Am I in a state like Tibet? Am I being overpowered by the ego? Am I living a choice less existence? Do I even realise it? The ego provides me the state of the art facilities, but my roots and values are what I really should want. Can there be a balance? The answer to all is YES. Writing this makes me realise that I am to a certain extent living under that command of the ego. I gives me a lot of benefits, but deep down, does the atman require this? If permanent happiness is what I seek, then all the external objects just are a waste of time. Think Rishi, think! Start this thought process now. Permanent happiness should be the goal. This is what I will ask Lord Shiva at Kailash. My yatra has now started.
Over the three days in Lhasa, visited the Potala Palace, which was the palace of the Dalai Lama before the Cultural Revolution in 1959. What amazed me about the palace was that even though the Chinese took over Tibet, they have been pacca businessmen and converted it into a tourist spot. What shocked me about the facts was when our guide told us the horrific stories. Out of 6000 monasteries, only 20 remained. The monasteries such destroyed were made into roads and citizens were told to walk on them. Just imagine, someone breaks my temple and makes a road outside my house and forces me to walk on it? I didn't react to it and just ignored the thought. But now while I type this blog, it makes me think.All the monks were either killed or jailed. Very few made it to India.
On the other hand, Lhasa was a delight. Nice big roads, great buildings, modern vehicles, all very state of the art. Even visited the rail station which had a platform bigger than all 4 platforms of churgate station put together. Money pumped in by the China govt., is well spent no doubt about that. But the question is - DO THE TIBETANS WANT THIS CHANGE?
A story about Akbar and Birbal was told. Once a child with an over sized coat and a middle aged man with a coat barely covering his chest walked into the darbaar of Akbar. Seeing the apparent disparity, Akbar asked Birbal - being a just king, I think that I should ask the boy to exchange his coat with the man's. Birbal stopped him by saying- King you cannot change anyones fate and destiny. The man is not asking for help and the boy is lucky to have the big coat. What this means is that the Tibetan's were happy and contended with their state of living. They did not ask for a change. This is what is a disturbing trend in todays world. Give help when asked for. Don't impose yourself on others. This makes me take a step back and look at myself. Have I been a self imposing 'helper'. Do I help even when its not required. Its the play of the ego that makes me want to prove that I am capable, I am in a state of higher power, hence want to impose that power even if its not asked for. The help is just a manifestation of power in this case. Think before you act. You could be imposing yourself on others.THINK!
Am I really free? Or are also bound by the powers of the ego? Does it guide your everyday actions. Am I in a state like Tibet? Am I being overpowered by the ego? Am I living a choice less existence? Do I even realise it? The ego provides me the state of the art facilities, but my roots and values are what I really should want. Can there be a balance? The answer to all is YES. Writing this makes me realise that I am to a certain extent living under that command of the ego. I gives me a lot of benefits, but deep down, does the atman require this? If permanent happiness is what I seek, then all the external objects just are a waste of time. Think Rishi, think! Start this thought process now. Permanent happiness should be the goal. This is what I will ask Lord Shiva at Kailash. My yatra has now started.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
phase 1
as i was preparing for the yatra, i was more worried about the arrangements than my own packing. taking that pain killer was a killer as my eyes swelled up. NO! i screamed to myself. you don't even have 12 hrs to leave and your eyes are swollen. pop the avil's non stop. pack pack pack. lots of things to do this evening, drop the bike, meet the boyz and prepare. 55kgs overweight made me drop my own essentials. realised it when i reach kathmandu. (then there is a GOD who intervenes. Norbu, who I just met a couple of days before come to me and gifts me a jacket. i was chilly the whole time and it came as a God send. Thanks Norbu)
when i was awake the whole night as i didnt want to miss my flight, the thought came to me. i am entering the phase 1 of my time here in india. i am going to Kailash Manasarovar. My dream and my life. its finally coming to reality. when i was to go with Swami Mitrananda in May 2005, moms health was not to good to leave her. it was sad at that time. guess one has to wait for the right time to reach HIM. i feel this is the time now. me joining atma darshan and now going to KM was indeed HIS plan. how he does it makes me just surrender to him. why think and waste time. i believe he makes me think only when he wants to. thank GOD!!! making the most of the yatra while taking care of the group is going to be a challenge. what if the group really saps my energies? how will i cope? all these thoughts which were clouding my thinking just evaporated when i met them. Now thinking of it, such a waste of time na. Get set for Phase 1 and make the most of it. you dont know when you will be doing it again. surrender to His feet and He will take care. Consciously or un consciously i am doing just that. i am going to meet Him and with that one thought, things are just flowing. dont need to meditate to know that he is there. writing this is meditation itself.
they say when the chips are down that one turns to HIM. but i turn to Him all times. that does not mean my chips are down all times, it means that He does not let my chips be down at all!
I leave from Lhasa tomorrow for Kailash. This is the yatra I will cherish the most. There are those who will be missed, but they are there for sure.
when i was awake the whole night as i didnt want to miss my flight, the thought came to me. i am entering the phase 1 of my time here in india. i am going to Kailash Manasarovar. My dream and my life. its finally coming to reality. when i was to go with Swami Mitrananda in May 2005, moms health was not to good to leave her. it was sad at that time. guess one has to wait for the right time to reach HIM. i feel this is the time now. me joining atma darshan and now going to KM was indeed HIS plan. how he does it makes me just surrender to him. why think and waste time. i believe he makes me think only when he wants to. thank GOD!!! making the most of the yatra while taking care of the group is going to be a challenge. what if the group really saps my energies? how will i cope? all these thoughts which were clouding my thinking just evaporated when i met them. Now thinking of it, such a waste of time na. Get set for Phase 1 and make the most of it. you dont know when you will be doing it again. surrender to His feet and He will take care. Consciously or un consciously i am doing just that. i am going to meet Him and with that one thought, things are just flowing. dont need to meditate to know that he is there. writing this is meditation itself.
they say when the chips are down that one turns to HIM. but i turn to Him all times. that does not mean my chips are down all times, it means that He does not let my chips be down at all!
I leave from Lhasa tomorrow for Kailash. This is the yatra I will cherish the most. There are those who will be missed, but they are there for sure.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
What a day!!!
Where to get inspiration from when you start the day with a negative note? I am lucky to have my inspiration intact. When you cannot draw from the self, turn to your close friend, and then just the spark from them gets you going.
Today was the first day of meeting the CEOs with ITC. CEO to koi milla nahi but the secretaries were met. Hence totally un-productive as far as the hit rate went. Time is running short and now pulling out all stops to make this happen. What does it take to make it happen. Call all your contacts and get the meetings in. Only the real decision makers have to be involved. But we have to get our ass moving. Thank God for this wake up call. Now action is what is going to get done. I am happy that we finally getting focused.
What did I learn today? Don't expect things to just happen. You have to get there and get it done yourself. And when you realise it, it makes you feel more responsible. Actually all your irresponsibility and earlier mistakes can get wiped out. Thats what you like, isn't it? Challenges are good. But do you make the situation become a challenge by procrastinating it? Maybe true, maybe false. But I have seen that its only when there is a challenge and all is ALMOST lost, that I can come up on trumps. So once more its come to that. Lets Do it. Pull out all the stops and get work done. Darne ka nahi. Lots is dependent on this. But don't do it as your life depends on it. Have faith and do your best. With a free soul and best efforts, there is only bound to be success.
Many emotions through this day. Unhappy, negative, mocking, slowly accepting, stock taking, action taking, happy. Nice! As long as you happy, thats what we looking for in life.
Today was the first day of meeting the CEOs with ITC. CEO to koi milla nahi but the secretaries were met. Hence totally un-productive as far as the hit rate went. Time is running short and now pulling out all stops to make this happen. What does it take to make it happen. Call all your contacts and get the meetings in. Only the real decision makers have to be involved. But we have to get our ass moving. Thank God for this wake up call. Now action is what is going to get done. I am happy that we finally getting focused.
What did I learn today? Don't expect things to just happen. You have to get there and get it done yourself. And when you realise it, it makes you feel more responsible. Actually all your irresponsibility and earlier mistakes can get wiped out. Thats what you like, isn't it? Challenges are good. But do you make the situation become a challenge by procrastinating it? Maybe true, maybe false. But I have seen that its only when there is a challenge and all is ALMOST lost, that I can come up on trumps. So once more its come to that. Lets Do it. Pull out all the stops and get work done. Darne ka nahi. Lots is dependent on this. But don't do it as your life depends on it. Have faith and do your best. With a free soul and best efforts, there is only bound to be success.
Many emotions through this day. Unhappy, negative, mocking, slowly accepting, stock taking, action taking, happy. Nice! As long as you happy, thats what we looking for in life.
Friday, June 22, 2007
Challenges and joys
Every day is a new beginning, but its also a new challenge. And how I get through it is what I need to review. This blog is a good medium to sit back and take a stock of how the day has been and what challenges have been overcome or which challenges overcame me.
Was sure I could cool down the heated up Surendra from his un-necessary shouting, but it was not easy for me to overcome my own feelings. Its not easy to overcome the challenge of wanting to do many things but dont get down to doing it.
Why does it be that what you want so bad doesn't come to you, but what you kind of don't really really want chases you. Sharanya's words come to my mind at this point, "when you truly stop looking or finding or searching, the right comes your way, MAYA is very tricky that way." Thanks Sharanya! This mind plays tricks and one part knows things are not going to happen, but the other part wants it to happen so bad. Then again there is something that I believe in... what you think you manifest. So what I cannot overcome is why doesn't everything I think, manifests? Will have to think deeper about it. I should be happy that some things at least manifest.
Like today, I was constantly hoping and praying that Meeru gets through her interview at Irevna and there it was manifested. As soon as she told me that she was through the computer test, I was just dead sure that shes got the job. Later on she told me she had an interview also. (I think she told me that time only, but was overjoyed and on the highway to hear beyond) HAPPY IS ME. So for the higher good, things do work out. Keep at it.
The meeting with Dr. Vilas was really encouraging. The challenge of overcoming the first client was great. The sense of achievement was good. He is very spiritually enlightened person. Would be a great person to join in.
The challenge of managing family life and work life is a daily one. But over the last few days, the circumstances are making me take up responsibility at home, and deep down I'm happy about it. Its a big challenge and over coming it one step at a time, without knowing how many steps are there is fun.
Facing challenges and experiencing joys will continue. What I have started to observe-is the self behind all these experiences. Am I the challenger or am I the happy person? Keep at it Mr. Bhatia, at least you have started to observe.
Was sure I could cool down the heated up Surendra from his un-necessary shouting, but it was not easy for me to overcome my own feelings. Its not easy to overcome the challenge of wanting to do many things but dont get down to doing it.
Why does it be that what you want so bad doesn't come to you, but what you kind of don't really really want chases you. Sharanya's words come to my mind at this point, "when you truly stop looking or finding or searching, the right comes your way, MAYA is very tricky that way." Thanks Sharanya! This mind plays tricks and one part knows things are not going to happen, but the other part wants it to happen so bad. Then again there is something that I believe in... what you think you manifest. So what I cannot overcome is why doesn't everything I think, manifests? Will have to think deeper about it. I should be happy that some things at least manifest.
Like today, I was constantly hoping and praying that Meeru gets through her interview at Irevna and there it was manifested. As soon as she told me that she was through the computer test, I was just dead sure that shes got the job. Later on she told me she had an interview also. (I think she told me that time only, but was overjoyed and on the highway to hear beyond) HAPPY IS ME. So for the higher good, things do work out. Keep at it.
The meeting with Dr. Vilas was really encouraging. The challenge of overcoming the first client was great. The sense of achievement was good. He is very spiritually enlightened person. Would be a great person to join in.
The challenge of managing family life and work life is a daily one. But over the last few days, the circumstances are making me take up responsibility at home, and deep down I'm happy about it. Its a big challenge and over coming it one step at a time, without knowing how many steps are there is fun.
Facing challenges and experiencing joys will continue. What I have started to observe-is the self behind all these experiences. Am I the challenger or am I the happy person? Keep at it Mr. Bhatia, at least you have started to observe.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
What did I learn today
First idea of blogging occurred to me when I read a classmate's blog...shucks he writes so well.. and also Sharanya's blog made me think...chal lets put my thoughts down.
In exactly 90 days I hope to be in London enroute to Madrid. Lets hope it all goes well.
This month has been hectic...actually ever since I got the admission its been a whirlwind ride.
Atmadarshan is a great experience so far. Learning more each day is just awesome. The feeling of being able to create so much value for this baby of RK and Venkat is exhilarating. Wish could stay long to see more of our projects through. But some decisions are taken and it feels like a risk, but its a bigger risk not taking these decisions.
The feeling of uncertainty along with the excitement of seeing a new world is mind boggling, the mind wants to hold to negative thoughts and the intellect seeing the positive rational things. This play of the mind and intellect is an ongoing process. Each time one of them wins. Practicality prevails.
Lots to do in the next 90 days. Divided into 3 parts of 30 days each. 30 full days to Atma Darshan travelling to Kailash, 30 days to Family and 30 days of working my ass off. Where is the time left for me, I think? But each time I think that, there is another thought, make each moment for yourself. There will be lots of time for me if I make each one count. Make each one a learning one. This is what I will take with me for life. What have I learnt out of this experience? Am I going to move ahead or move behind in my evolution?
Today I learnt that some relationships need to go through some strains to become stronger. Responsibilities when done, give a feeling of extreme joy and satisfaction. Karna hai,darna nahi. Spanish lessons are not easy to learn. Writing a blog is good.
In exactly 90 days I hope to be in London enroute to Madrid. Lets hope it all goes well.
This month has been hectic...actually ever since I got the admission its been a whirlwind ride.
Atmadarshan is a great experience so far. Learning more each day is just awesome. The feeling of being able to create so much value for this baby of RK and Venkat is exhilarating. Wish could stay long to see more of our projects through. But some decisions are taken and it feels like a risk, but its a bigger risk not taking these decisions.
The feeling of uncertainty along with the excitement of seeing a new world is mind boggling, the mind wants to hold to negative thoughts and the intellect seeing the positive rational things. This play of the mind and intellect is an ongoing process. Each time one of them wins. Practicality prevails.
Lots to do in the next 90 days. Divided into 3 parts of 30 days each. 30 full days to Atma Darshan travelling to Kailash, 30 days to Family and 30 days of working my ass off. Where is the time left for me, I think? But each time I think that, there is another thought, make each moment for yourself. There will be lots of time for me if I make each one count. Make each one a learning one. This is what I will take with me for life. What have I learnt out of this experience? Am I going to move ahead or move behind in my evolution?
Today I learnt that some relationships need to go through some strains to become stronger. Responsibilities when done, give a feeling of extreme joy and satisfaction. Karna hai,darna nahi. Spanish lessons are not easy to learn. Writing a blog is good.
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