Ganpati Bappa Moriya

When someone asks me what is the power of God and have you seen it, what I can only tell them is that till you experience it yourself, whatever others may tell you, you will not truly believe that God exists. When the chips are down is when I remember him with all the force of the world. And why not. Kunti had asked Krishna to give her a little pain everyday so to remember HIM all times. My faith also had its conditions and was very upset that inspite of the 'conditional' faith, I was not getting what I wanted. Then after discussing with my closest friend, I realised that i was being so conditional in the faith I have. I am not truly surrendering to HIM. This was the real cause of the pain and mental torture I was going through. Thats when I snapped out of the illusion that I am doing anything and I can control all the things in my life. Surrender was the only way to keep the mind peaceful.
To leave on 19 september was conditional that I get my visa much before. By the time it was 13 september, I cancelled my ticket to Spain. Mom had told me that since I would not be here on 19th September for the Ganpati visarjan (5th day), she didn't want to keep Ganpati at home, a tradition we had kept for over 30 years. Now with the decision not to go, I immediately told Mom to get Ganeshji home. I even stopped calling the embassy now and resigned to the fact that when they have to call, they will. On Saturday 15 September, the Lord Ganesh graced our house. There was such a sense of peace and happiness. I was glad that we took the decision to bring him home and keep the tradition on. Lots of our friends and relatives came home and it was really nice. Then the miracle happened. Monday evening, again while entering the ashram, I got the news that the visa was through. I was elated if not ecstatic. All the things started to fall into place now.
Now Tuesday was the only day I had to go to Delhi and return as Wednesday was the visarjan. When the visa officer told me that she will give me the visa the next day, I had to beg and plead her. Not heeding to my requests, I finally told her that I have to return to Mumbai as I had to do the Ganesh visarjan the next day. Magic! She said OK and while returning the passport with the visa stamped, she signed off by saying - Ganpati Bappa Moriya.
What more indication was required that He was controlling these unseen things in my life. Why do I waste so much time thinking and brooding over the fact that I can or cannot do so many things. His grace is there, so now there is no further confusion. When the chips are down in future, I will read this again and get the inspiration and commitment to move ahead.
The last 2 weeks have been the most hectic. It was amazing the amount of work I had to finish. But again by His grace all things worked out very very well. My bosses at Atma Darshan were the most supportive. It was the biggest loss to them but they put my future before theirs as priority and bid me the most lovely farewell. I will truly be missing them.
It was the most beautiful experience to be witness to real miracles from God himself. Now I know why the visa was rejected in the first place - to ensure that my faith in him remains intact. Whatever little doubt that I had, was removed. When I truly gave up the fight and surrendered, it worked like magic. Surrender and flow with the faith. Thats the way to go ahead.