phase 1

as i was preparing for the yatra, i was more worried about the arrangements than my own packing. taking that pain killer was a killer as my eyes swelled up. NO! i screamed to myself. you don't even have 12 hrs to leave and your eyes are swollen. pop the avil's non stop. pack pack pack. lots of things to do this evening, drop the bike, meet the boyz and prepare. 55kgs overweight made me drop my own essentials. realised it when i reach kathmandu. (then there is a GOD who intervenes. Norbu, who I just met a couple of days before come to me and gifts me a jacket. i was chilly the whole time and it came as a God send. Thanks Norbu)
when i was awake the whole night as i didnt want to miss my flight, the thought came to me. i am entering the phase 1 of my time here in india. i am going to Kailash Manasarovar. My dream and my life. its finally coming to reality. when i was to go with Swami Mitrananda in May 2005, moms health was not to good to leave her. it was sad at that time. guess one has to wait for the right time to reach HIM. i feel this is the time now. me joining atma darshan and now going to KM was indeed HIS plan. how he does it makes me just surrender to him. why think and waste time. i believe he makes me think only when he wants to. thank GOD!!! making the most of the yatra while taking care of the group is going to be a challenge. what if the group really saps my energies? how will i cope? all these thoughts which were clouding my thinking just evaporated when i met them. Now thinking of it, such a waste of time na. Get set for Phase 1 and make the most of it. you dont know when you will be doing it again. surrender to His feet and He will take care. Consciously or un consciously i am doing just that. i am going to meet Him and with that one thought, things are just flowing. dont need to meditate to know that he is there. writing this is meditation itself.
they say when the chips are down that one turns to HIM. but i turn to Him all times. that does not mean my chips are down all times, it means that He does not let my chips be down at all!
I leave from Lhasa tomorrow for Kailash. This is the yatra I will cherish the most. There are those who will be missed, but they are there for sure.